my life.....

these few days really heppened alot thingS i reallly dunno wat 2 do....
n yesterday(24 october 07) i blow up my temper in class....i broke down on da day...first my result....it is not even fair at all. i study veri veri hard but my friend did not even study n they get higher marks den me!!!!! n i still act n laugh n make a fun of myself like i am ok in front of them too..... n no one i can share my feelings too.......

my worst day ever(22October)

i had been a choir member for almost 4months but bfore i join choir i know da i am going 2 face alot of problems like break voice n singing veri bad.... n da, had happen yesterday.... yesterday we were practising our choir song 2 practise 4 our concert next month ... when we were practisng da time my choir instructer said da he heard some one in de group singing veri oddly n bad . da time i knew da de person is me...den de instucter called everyone 2 sing n 2 find who is de ''culprit'' despite knowing de truth of my breaking voice i still decided 2 sing 2 them n hope da de ''culprit'' is not me.....but things did not went well....da culprit was me!!! n de instruter called me not 2 sing during de actual day of de concert...i was totally broke down...i did not know wad 2 do ...i almost cried at da time....n i also got a feeling of dunno how am i goiing 2 face de other choir members too!!! i felt totally embarress n disappointed by myself.. i really wanted 2 die too!!! as these few days i had too many bad things happened to me i really dunno wat 2 do !!!! pls help me!!!!!!!!!!......................