accept accept accept

[HUMANS ARE GREEDY IN NATURE ]

what do you think? i personally think that it is not really true.

Thanks to the stress brought by the up-coming EYE and o-level i started to reflect on myself and started to think even more than usual.

i realized that people like us now, are practically working non-stop . who could really say wad is the end and what do u get in the end. just like us students , we worked hard from kindergartner to go to de good primary school, den primary school work hard for PSLE to go to express and go to a good school , den secondary school work hard for o-level to go to good JC or poly. den in JC or POLY to work hard to get a good job. den in the good job work hard again . so can any1 tell me how and when this cycle will end?

human are not greedy in nature, that is what i think. because of the reality that if we people do not work hard , we will be eliminated cruelly. hence people work hard , so as time goes by this becomes a habit and gradually people describe human as greedy.

i realized that i have a LONG way to go. i have to keep working hard , endlessly, since no one could really say when it will stop. i felt rather sick of it but this is reality right? i am born here. i have no choice but to accept there isn't any choice.

my teacher said something that is rather interesting and linger in my mind. she said that the purpose for all living things to live is only to reproduce only...... people who gets what i am trying to say will more or less understand what this post i talking about *i think

i am being compress by the stress given from the tons of exams , tests and more exams and test. is really irritating , i cannot see what's ahead of me except for failed exams and tests.
now , is this really wad i want in my life? my dream....is it just a dream?

i love him , i love him , i love him!!! him=jesus

2day is choir again!!! and we are gonna perform a song called [i will follow him] this song is really fantastic , it really brings out the lively side of choir to the audience which is also what we want as many people responded that choir is kinda dead when performing. hence this song was perfect, but this song was really difficult to catch and 2day i was like kinda ''off'' i think , i could not sing correctly the pitch no matter how i memo and voice sound kinda croaky. just feeling weird la zzzz haizz .

btw i have a part to sing a short solo and i was kinda happy(chey) lol but I DID NOT DO IT WELL!!!! ARGHHH SOO ANGRY. another thing i realized , i start to sing with my diaphragm and de result is kinda.....ermmm how should i say ... loud? i was able to sing parts that are slightly higher without much effort but at de same time , i go louder and louder and for some reasons i could not hear myself hence , i kept going louder and louder each time. so once the song stop i realized many eyes were on me , like telling me , wth?! so loud? and i felt totally embarrassed by it. but just being curious , using diaphragm isit suppose to be like that? diao......other people(guy singer) could sing the guy key without effort at all but for me , even for the first verse already took me much effort to do so already haizzzz feeling disappointed by myself haizzz

after choir i sms seemun(no special reasons is just because she sms me first about giving back something to someone , therefore i just told her this thing dun misunderstood people!!)
she responded to me that , i sang rather well noting went wrong but to me i think that i perform pretty bad. but after she said this i thought that i should not be that negative so i sort of ignore this matter and enjoyed myself in a movie which my sis treat me.

it was a outing that had been planned kinda long but those days , we weren't free , thus it was postpone to today lorz , outing with my sis was very fun!!! cause she almost paid everything!! hahahahaz , btw she damn rich lorz , she have 300bucks last week from my relative because of her birthday but i dun have *sob

that is why i ''threaten'' her to treat me muhahahaha!!! she treat me nachos and alot of stuff la most impotantly , she sort of sponsor me to buy the comic that i really really yearn!!! the comic is called [rozen maiden]!!! and i bought de first and second volume !!! woohoooo nice nice nice!!!
hahahahazzz actually wanna buy by my own wan but very exp leh , i kept pestering my friend whether should i spent my money on it or other stuff , all commented very agitated and said 'NO YOU SHOULD NOT BUY THAT COMIC LA'' that is also why since now den i finally buy it and that is also why i felt over the moon!!! woohooo

*thx sun niu(sm)!! for not ignoring me or get frustrated when i am being such a irritant about how i perform thx thx thx!!!

to the person whom i hurt

Is been a long time since i post.afraid that this would continue.

actually i have tons and tons of things to write, just that when i sat in front of de com my mind was in total blank. all hatred , anger , sadness thoughts just disappeared somehow. of course some good thoughts as well too. but i supposed that this is a good thing right?

and reason being why i am posting now was because this thing had been bugging me for quite long and i believed that it is my fault.

am i thinking too much? am i being too sensitive? am i wrong?

at least being sensitive is ain't a bad thing right? anyway i wanna hereby apologize to that person whom i hurt indirectly or directly , mentally or physically.

but just to say that i dun hate any1 , i dun bear grudge and i dun discriminant any1 BECAUSE i know that i ain't no perfect person that have the frigging rights to do so. i absolutely dislike that kind of person , i said [dislike] but i will not [hate] that person. but so far i have not seen that kind of person at all hence i guess saying that i dun hate any1 is alright.

dun feel so [out] dun alwayz let loneliness be your friend cause we are your friend here