my hairrrrrrrrrrr

haizzzz so frustrated about my hairr..... seriously why my hair like spike spike wan sia......and from people around me .. there are quite alot of comments about my hair . first = muchroom second= durian third= love shaped forth= bush fifth= grass sixth = ......i dunno la got alot alot la .... all dumb dumb comment sia... and now da i have jus cut my hair it had a new shape da i name....it is call vegetable =.= anyway though i find it quite frustrating but sometimes i find it quite funny da i have all kinds of different things to represent my hair... non-living thing living thing once alive or even nver alive....also a good thing right? i guess so.... =)

song. favorite . history (''season 2'')

yoyoyo everyone is de ''song.favorite.history'' again today i gonnna intro song da i listen when i am terribly sad and depress


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this song is called save me from myself

i know this song from a singer that had already died during a competition at taiwan. her name is called 黎礎寧 she is one of de contestant in de competition but during de competition something about relationships happened and she suicide . i not really a fan of her actually but i really like da song she sings and i from then on i will listen to this song whenever i feel down or sad. although this song actually dun really reflect on me but de melody and de style of music catches my heart as this song only played using only a guitar and the singer reallly ned to put alot of feelings to this songs or else the song will be weird. and de feeling she put is really WOW and that is why i named this song as my ''sad song''......

my character.....

woohooo is been kinda long since i post.... anyway now i really dunno wad to do i mean i dunno should i change my character anot ... seriously cause i felt that having de character like ''inoue'' meaning being nice and good it dun benefit me somehow and it don't repay me instead i think is ruining my life... as i hav a character like a''gay'' like many people feel this way and because of da people starts to tease me or maybe should i say hurt me.... and i hav a inoue-like character i dun really care and jus put it inside my heart. if u ask me why i dun jus 4get it instead of putting inside my heart and dwell on it even more i would simply say da i would rather dwell on it and become emo and numb so da when people insult me again i will not feel da ''pain'' anymore.but instead my character makes people ''bully'' me even more and thought da i am a GAY ,SISSY, AND I CANNOT DO A SINGLE THING AND SERIOUSLY WAD CAN I DO I REALLY DUN WANNA ANY1 TO BE SAD OR AFRAID BECAUSE OF ME I WANNA EVERYONE AROUND ME TO BE HAPPY AND NO WORRIES ....BUT TIMES, I FELT REALLY ''unbearable'' it is as if bleeding inside and i jus explode like da... and start to shout and throw things.... and this action actually makes people feel da i am a not mannered person like a gangster and a person da is easily angry and cannot cope with such little things.... but no one knows why and wad is de reasons.....and no one ask....who is there for me... i really ned someone there to help me reached out hand to me...and after all THE things i ned to put all it into mY heart and smile brightly like nothing happened SERIOUSLY NOTHING HAPPENED!!!!! AND WHO KNOWS DA HOW MANY FREAKING TIMES DO I NED TO HAV THIS KIND OF FEELINGS OVER AND OVER AGAIN? AND WHO KNOWS DA SOME DAY I MIGHT GO MAD AND SUDDENLY DISAPPEAR FROM THIS WORLD WHICH NO ONE CARES OR HELP ME? ANY1? ANYBODY? is de world dead?


crying, tears = coward? pathetic person? cry baby? gay? sissy?

wad is meaning of it?? not sure.......