i'm just tired

how sickening is this when everything you do just go against you?

its just like your grade got jeopardize even though you did nothing, oh wait, it did happened to me before, talk about irony! -.-

whenever other people told me something bad had happened to them, '' ouch '' will be the first thing sprout from my mouth, like as if a fall and a bruise surfaced

As for my case, it will be a dagger brutally stabbed on all part of my torso.

translation to that metaphor would meant the things i've encountered would be far severe than them.

firstly, my singing CCA in my poly screwed up and once again, i've failed.

About the details, i don't wish to raise anymore.

well, simple enough, the reason being is because i'm really torn apart to talk about this again.

my fortitude, made up of my confidence and everything positive inside my brain was smashed into smithereens, leaving only a small spot support the massive figure.

is just like a polar bear trapped on a pathetic small ice cube and yet do not know how to swim, a rare polar bear indeed.

but what i'm trying to say is that, what is left in me is really weak. it can crumble down even with a slight touch from the wind. i can almost see the shaking tower and the foundation crying.

besides all the crazy happenings, another thing that got me crying was the thing about ''equality''

they said equality is everywhere, but is it really so?

they said comparison leads to conflict but do they stop doing that?

well, my answer will be no.

having to think about all the poly around, SP, NP, RP, TP , NYP.

there is a clear line of comparison....

but why would they want to compare and try to give a bad name to another?

seriously, regardless what anyone do, i seriously wish that they could think about others first.

we are bleeding but we kept quiet. but does it gave a full right to continue this comparison?

say your damn answer in the face of fairness.

there are too much difference in this world.....

equality will never happen...

to be frank, there was lots of tears these week, but i swallowed all the agony alone.

how long can this continue?

i can feel the string that is keeping my sanity is going to snap anytime.

my guardian, my love, my saint, where are you. i need your blessings to get me out of this slum.